Señorita Bread

Wednesday, 4/13

Today, I think of the women of Holy Week.


My formative faith first called me God's own. My formative faith also first told me my role in God's upside down kin-dom was limited because of my gender. We didn't pay much attention to Holy Week either. Now, each year during Holy Week, I set aside a day to remember the women of Holy Week, to remind myself just how much the Easter story affirms the former and rejects the latter.


Did the women know? Martha hosted Jesus at her home while he traveled between Bethany and Jerusalem in the early days of Holy Week. When her sister, Mary, broke open the jar of oil and washed Jesus' feet, did she sense the danger that lay ahead for him in Jerusalem?


The women stayed at the cross. Since my first Advent in the Episcopal Church when I was very pregnant, I've slowly been nurturing a devotion to Blessed Mary, the God-bearer. When my child asked me to read him the story (the Crucifixion and Resurrection, always together for little ones) again last night, my heart broke for Mary, watching her child die.


On Sunday morning, the women showed up at the tomb. I don't know if they believed in the Resurrection then or just needed to manifest their grief, but they showed up when the others didn't. In a culture that did not value the witness of women, God's upside down kin-dom called them in and made these women the witnesses to the Resurrection. Mary Magdalene, who the church has tried to whore up throughout history, was the first person commissioned to deliver the Good News.


I thought about these women as I rolled my dough today. And I cried for their sorrow and I laughed for their joy, as I see them doing as they worked their own doughs in my sacred imagination. And I remembered them, those named and those whose names we have lost, because remembering is a holy thing.


INGREDIENTS


Dough:

3 cups (360g) All-Purpose Flour

3 tablespoons (37g) granulated sugar

2 1/4 teaspoons yeast

1 teaspoon salt

1 cup milk

1/4 cup (50g) vegetable oil


Filling:

2 tablespoons (15g) All-Purpose Flour

4 tablespoons (57g) unsalted butter

1/3 cup (37g) breadcrumbs 

1/2 cup (99g) granulated sugar

1/2 cup (113g) milk


Topping:

1/2 cup (56g)  breadcrumbs 

2 tablespoons (28g) milk


METHOD


I rarely have instant yeast on hand, so if you are like me, start by warming your milk and adding in about a tablespoon of sugar, and the yeast. Let it sit for several minutes until foamy.


While you wait, mix together the flour, remaining sugar, and salt in a large mixing bowl.


If you do have instant yeast, mix all your dry dough ingredients together. 


Begin mixing in the milk and oil and continue kneading, by hand or mixer, until the dough is smooth and elastic. Since I focus on the women of Holy Week, I slow down with this one and take the time to knead by hand, finding connections over centuries with women who also worked their dough.


Form your dough into a ball and leave it to rest for about 30 minutes in a lightly greased bowl. 


On a lightly floured surface, gently knead your dough for 3-4 minutes until it is supple. Form into a ball again, and let rest for another 30 minutes. 


While your dough rests, begin making the filling. 


In a small saucepan, add the flour and toast over medium heat for about 3-5 minutes. It will darken slightly and smell a bit toasty or nutty.


Add the butter, breadcrumbs, and sugar to the saucepan. Stir until the butter melts and is thoroughly combined with the flour and sugar.


Once the sugar begins to melt, add the milk and stir until the mixture thickens, about 3 minutes. The filling will be thick and caramel in color. Remove from heat and let it cool completely.


Prepare your baking sheet: lightly grease a baking sheet, or line with parchment or a silicon release pad. 


Return to your dough. Gently deflate it and turn it out onto a lightly floured surface. Divide the dough into 12 equal portions (about 55g each or the size of a large golf ball).


Roll each piece of dough into a tight ball and cover them with plastic wrap to prevent them from drying out. Let dough to rest for 15 minutes.


Place the breadcrumbs on a plate and the milk in a small bowl.


Take one ball of dough and begin to roll it into an oval. It should be approximately  8” x 4” but it does not need to be perfect. Using a rubber spatula, spread a tablespoon of filling evenly over the dough. Then roll into a tight log, starting from the 4” side. 


Brush the roll with milk and roll to coat it in breadcrumbs. Place seam-side down on the baking sheet. 


Repeat with the remaining balls of dough. I like to work in batches, rolling several balls of dough out, then adding filling to them all, and finally rolling and coating. 


Brush the top of the dough with milk and roll it in breadcrumbs to coat. Place, seam side down, on the prepared pan. Repeat with the remaining pieces of dough.


Cover the rolls and allow them to rise until they’re puffy and have just about doubled in size, about 45 to 60 minutes. While the rolls are rising, preheat the oven to 350°F.


Bake the rolls until golden brown, about 20 to 25 minutes.


Remove the rolls from the oven and place them on a rack to cool for 10 to 15 minutes.


Enjoy warm and share!